Check out Part 1 of Jackie’s Yoga Journey: Begin at the Beginning, for the origins of this dramatic path to becoming a yogini, and how I'm in the best shape of my life at the age of 40.
Life changing moment #4: the power of manifestation.
My super powerfully intuitive life coach introduced me to energy work in a way I had never experienced before. I learned to cycle my energy through my chakras one breath at a time, one step at a time - literally. These techniques the life coach showed me carried over in all aspects of my life.
Manifest: Los Angeles!
With focused intention, I set my sights on Los Angeles. In part because I was so desperate to escape my failed marriage and floundering job, but the west coast had been in my sights for years. I wrote into my one year plan, meditated on, prayed for - and to my great surprise, I landed a gig in Los Angeles within three months!
I was truly shocked that it worked! Armed with my special mix of oil and herbs from my life coach, along with a newfound sense of empowerment, I was more than ready to move thousands of miles from everyone and everything I had ever known behind to start fresh. New job, new home, new friends, new life!
Trauma & Healing
So I packed my bags and drove across the country with a man I had known for less than a year! Not at all a good decision, but according to him, he was already living there, so I thought I'd have a safe space to transition to my new life. Instead, I arrived pregnant and homeless - I later learned he had never even visited Los Angeles a day in his life. I made the very hard decision to end the pregnancy. My body was a wreck, my mind, my spirit - I was as not well as could be. I drank a lot and put on weight. Pain came at me on all fronts.
Downward Spiral of Despair
I stayed in this limbo relationship for eight grueling years, enduring all sorts of physical, mental & emotional torment (my choice - I have a hard time letting go!). It was a time of discovery about what narcissism is, how I can protect my light, and who I am. Although the move to Los Angeles had every potential to bring a fresh new start to life for me, I found myself so isolated that I had no friends after five years of living in the City of Angels - no community, no network of support. I was not a happy Jackie.
These photos represent my yoga journey from 2012-2022. While you can visually see the changes in my body, you can also glean the energetic shifts that bring the deepest transformation. Weight loss and gain has always been a challenge, along with maintaining a healthy diet and controlling substance use. For thirty years, I carried extra weight, literal baggage, in the small frame of my body. Yoga helped me shed much more than weight.
A Ray of Hope
One day in the dog days of drudgery and depression, a childhood friend’s mother posted on social media looking for people to practice a new manifestation technique she was studying. So, I got on a video call with her and we went through a process of calling in the things you want. I decided for the sake of this practice, I wanted to call in being a yoga instructor.
And that’s just what I did…
...check in next week to find out what happens in the next chapter!